The Eve of my Conscience

Tonight exactly at 0001 hrs, I'll be celebrating my 29th Birthday. Phew, how time flies!! I still have flashes of how things were so carefree and easy, how my parents always took care of things for me, how my mum always remind me of responsibility, and now, I'm somebody's husband, Im the man of my house.

Come to think of it, it's so easy to get off track in life, even with your family around to help you get trough all the ups and downs. Well, I'm the best example. I'm not the best of son or brother to my family, I'm not perfect, as does each and everyone of us, but my life journey is what you can call twisted. I still remember being a disappointment to my family, even a total disgrace is what I was. I flunked my tertiary education, bad one at it, I lied, deceived and broke the hearts of people who loved me. I lived in with my girlfriend in the same neighbourhood with my family, I have disregarded their feelings, but still they stood by me. I truly love all of you, especially my Mum, for it. I can't imagine how broken she must've felt to see her only son disgrace her to the highest level. Mum, I'm sorry and thank you for your incomparable patience and endless prayers, I'm sorry for all the tears you shed for and because of me. I love you so much. Same goes to my sisters, I know all of you felt the pain all those years seeing your brother inhumane madness. But now, I've changed, and thanks to all of you for giving me the time and chance to be who I am today. And mostly I Thank The Almighty for the Mercy, the Light, the Guidance, and the Divine Intervention You sent to wake me and change me to be a better slave, son, brother and now, a husband. I can't say enough to express how I truly appreciate everything.

If I have only one day left to live, I'll say that I lived my life and I tasted the bitter and swallowed it with pride, knowing that you, my family stood by me and I'll stand by you until the end. I love all of you.