TWILIGHT

I am considered useless for almost one week. Every free time I've got was consumed by them. Every sleep I had been dreaming about them. I am the latest casualty of the Vampire and Wolf people.. and I blame my Cousin @dr3h.. hehee

Macam gila pulak aku rasa.. macam budak-budak pun ada.. lost in fantasy world. The only difference maybe is that I didnt fall in love with any character. I love the whole alternate universe. Read all of them twice. And sometimes in between dreams I dreamt extra chapters that wasn't in the book. Other times it's just different endings, different directions different character development. I never got so absorbed in a story the way this one got to me. I even got to the war that ends the Volturi's supremacy and The Cullens will forge a new Empire with the wolves. Lucu..lucu.. I cant understand much of this new obsession. Maybe this has always been what I need to read. Maybe it brings back the child in me, the make-believe world of sorts, and the positive, look-at-the-bright-side, good-will-always-win belief that almost lost within me... hehe...

So that's your cue, cuz, to let me in if u happen to come accross anything as exciting as this one...

WHAT THE F...

This is about UMNO. I am not a political fanatic, nor did I even care about politics before. Hate to imagine it, but WHO CARES ANYWAY, RIGHT? AS LONG AS WE HAVE MONEY TO BURN, WE WILL ALWAYS BE IN THE VIP SECTION LAUGHING DOWN ON THOSE FOOLS THINKING THEY CAN CHANGE THE WORLD WITH JUST A POCKET FULL OF DUST AND BROOM IN THEIR HANDS...

Bahasa Melayu - English = Kemajuan Bangsa dan Negara atau Bahasa Melayu + English = Kemajuan Bangsa dan Negara?

Rasanya terpanggil untuk aku menyampaikan dan menulis mengenai topik ini. Secara jujurnya sebab utama aku ingin mengulas tentang topik ini adalah ekoran dari Demonstrasi menentang PPSMI baru-baru ini, yang secara ikhlasnya bagi pendapat aku amat mengejutkan. Terutamanya apabila salah seorang yang mengikuti demonstrasi ini adalah antara orang yang selama ini cukup aku hormati pemikirannya, A. Samad Said.

Antara sebab atau aku rasa lebih sesuai dilabelkan sebagai alasan mereka ialah 'pembunuhan Bahasa Melayu' dan 'majoriti rakyat menolak Matapelajaran Sains dan Matematik dalam English'. Persoalannya benarkah Bahasa Melayu akan 'terbunuh' dengan pelaksanaan PPSMI ini dan benarkah majoriti rakyat Malaysia atau orang2 Melayu menolaknya? Aku rasa persoalan ini haruslah dijawab oleh setiap individu yang merasa diri mereka Rakyat Malaysia, Orang Melayu, mahupun Bumiputera Sabah dan Sarawak sendiri. Blogku ini cukuplah untuk mengutarakan pendapatku sendiri sahaja.

Apakah impian setiap rakyat, sama ada Melayu, bukan Melayu, atau Bumiputera Sabah dan Sarawak ini bila berkaitan dengan masa depan Negara Malaysia ini? Aku tidak boleh jawab untuk mereka, tapi bagi aku ialah melihat Negara ini maju, berdikari, dan kuat, dalam ertikata lain, aku mahu Malaysia pada satu masa nanti tidak perlu gusar akan tekanan negara-negara maju, dihormati kerana pencapaian-pencapaian Ekonomi, Teknologi, dan penguasaan ilmu dalam bidang-bidang yang luas. Jadi apakah salahnya belajar Sains dan Matematik dalam Bahasa Inggeris? Mungkin bagi bidang sastera, penguasaan Bahasa Inggeris boleh dikatakan tidak relevan, tetapi sekurang-kurangnya untuk kedua-dua matapelajaran Sains dan Matematik ianya agak penting.

Mungkin ada pihak yang akan berhujah, kalau setakat mahukan penguasaan Bahasa Inggeris tidak perlulah ajar Sains dan Matematik dalam Bahasa Inggeris. Aku bukanlah orang yang pandai untuk membuat penjelasan dan huraian, tapi disitulah mereka-mereka ini membuat kesilapan yang besar. Pandai Bahasa Inggeris bukan bermakna orang itu akan automatik boleh jadi saintis, kerana bukanlah bahasa Inggeris itu yang menjadi masalahnya, tetapi istilah, terma, jargon (apakah terjemahan Bahasa Melayu untuk jargon?) untuk bidang itu yang akan memberi masalah dan menentukan tahap penguasaan kita dalam ilmu itu. Untuk mempelajari dan menguasai sesuatu ilmu, rasionalnya kita mesti belajar dahulu bahasa ilmu itu. Setelah kita berjaya menguasai ilmu-ilmu ini, dan menghasilkan pakar-pakar yang tidak terbilang banyaknya, barulah kita boleh secara perlahan-lahan menghasilkan istilah, terma, dan jargon-jargon kita dalam Bahasa Ibunda kita. Mungkin ramai pelajar Matematik Tambahan di zaman aku sekolah boleh jawab soalan mengenai Sisihan Piawai, tapi bila diajukan soalan mengenai Standard Deviation akan terkebil-kebil, sedangkan ia adalah benda yang sama cuma dalam bahasa yang berbeza. Tiada masalah bagi aku sekiranya kita menterjemah ilmu itu ke dalam bahasa kita sendiri, Bahasa Melayu hatta Bahasa Brunei atau Dusun sekalipun, tapi sekiranya kita berfikir, apakah kegunaannya? tidak praktikal di masa sekarang kerana firma-firma yang menjalankan kajian untuk menghasilkan teknologi ataupun produk berasaskan sains tidak akan bertanya dan berkomunikasi dengan Bahasa Melayu atau Brunei atau Dusun dsb. Maka apa yang kita harus buat? bagi aku aku akan belajar ilmu itu dalam bahasa yang memudahkan aku untuk mempraktikkannya kemudian.

Ada juga pihak yang mempertahankan golongan pendemonstrasi ini dengan menggunakan Jepun, Perancis, Jerman dan beberapa negara Eropah yang lain. Mereka mengatakan negara-negara ini tidak perlu belajar sains dalam Bahasa Inggeris untuk jadi negara maju. Ini adalah kurang tepat. Kenapa? cubalah lihat jurnal-jurnal sains antarabangsa yang ditulis oleh saintis-saintis terkemuka Jepun, Perancis dan Jerman, Bahasa apakah yang mereka gunakan untuk menerbitkan jurnal mereka? Cuma kelebihan mereka ialah kerana mereka sudah begitu maju, maka untuk penemuan-penemuan terbaru di peringkat awal, mereka boleh memilih untuk menulis dalam bahasa mereka agar orang bangsa lain tidak faham. Walaubagaimanapun, sebelum mereka boleh buat begitu, mereka juga mempelajari Sains dan Matematik dalam Bahasa Ilmu setiap bidang untuk menguasai ilmu itu, berpuluh-puluh malah beratus tahun dahulu.

Pendapatku, tidak payahlah menentang, tidak rugi belajar dalam Bahasa Inggeris kerana sehebat manapun orang Melayu atau apa2 bangsa dalam bahasa Inggeris, dia tetap tidak akan melupakan bahasa ibundanya. Contoh? jangan tengok jauh, ambil sahaja orang-orang India dan Cina, kita paksa mereka belajar dalam bahasa Melayu dari kecil dalam majoriti matapelajaran, sehingga ramai dari mereka yang mendapat keputusan cemerlang dalam Matapelajaran Bahasa Melayu di peringkat menengah, dan ramai juga bilangan mereka yang memasuki fakulti sastera di universiti-universiti tempatan. Lupakah mereka Bahasa ibunda mereka?.. tidak kan?.

Jadi dari membuang tenaga dan sel-sel otak untuk buat penentangan dan demonstrasi jalanan, lebih baik mereka berusaha memikirkan bagaimana PPSMI boleh dipertingkatkan dari segi kaedah pelaksanaannya, bagaimana pelaksanaan yang sesuai agar tiada pihak yang tersisih dan terpinggir dari mencapai kemajuan diri dan penguasaan ilmu. Otak yang baik seperti A. Samad Said dan cerdik-cerdik pandai lain seperti bekas Profesor Sains UKM tu lebih berguna sekiranya digunakan untuk memikirkan bagaimana untuk upgrade PPSMI dan memberi faedah kepada semua rakyat Malaysia umumnya dan orang Melayu khususnya, daripada menyertai demonstrasi yang akan downgrade kita semua di mata dunia.

Takkan Melayu Hilang Di Dunia, Tapi apa gunanya tidak hilang di dunia kalau jadi bangsa yang mundur, lemah, berpecah belah, berfikiran sempit, tidak memberi kesan kewujudannya, memilih untuk sentiasa merungut dan buat demonstrasi jalanan? Lebih Baik Melayu Dihapuskan Dari Mukabumi Dari Jadi Bangsa Yang Memalukan dan tidak Relevan. Nasib baik aku Orang Brunei, hehehe

Book Reading

During my recent visit to KL, I managed to spend some time to go into MPH bookstore, to reindulge my former passion, reading. I bought 5 books, from authors Robert Ludlum (my all time favorite writer) and Stephanie Meyer. I finished reading all but one. Here's the book list:

ROBERT LUDLUM'S THE BOURNE LEGACY - this book tells the story of the infamous spy/assassin Jason Bourne/David Webb, sometime after the Ultimatum, he's living as Professor Webb, an English Lecturer. He's trying to forget his other identity as Bourne and lead a happy and peaceful life with his wife and two children. But it seems that everything conspired against him ditching Bourne from his life...

ROBERT LUDLUM'S THE JANSON DIRECTIVE - This one also tells a story about Paul Janson a retired Spy/assassin, recalled to action for the last time only to realize that he was being used as a tool and framed for the crime, resulting the CIA to order a death sanction and other Intelligence Agency worldwide against him. The plot and twist of this story was so thrilling. It's Classic Ludlum.

ROBERT LUDLUM'S THE LAZARUS VENDETTA - This book is about terrorism beyond what we ever imagined, the danger of man abusing the wonder of technology, and the clever and almost perfect planning by the Lazarus Movement, only to be foiled by Covert-One's Colonel Jon Smith..

ROBERT LUDLUM'S THE SCORPIO ILLUSION - Havent finished this one, but basically its about a woman named Amaya Bajarrat, a very cunning, very dangerous one, master of creating diversion, illusion, with an arm in almost every government and organization. A woman whose motto is 'Death to all authority'...

STEPHANIE MEYER'S TWILIGHT - This one was a pleasant surprise for me. Seen the movie before, and this is wayyy better. Actually regret of not buying all series of the Twilight Saga. When I was at the bookstore I was contemplating on having the complete Saga (New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn, is it all?) but finally chose to buy just Twilight.

I have rediscovered my lost passion, but my wife already complaining that I'm always with a book.. hehehe.. She even asked "am I boring you already?" hehe..

My Holidays

Hi all, been quite a while since I wrote anything significant in this realm of my thoughts.. well I been busy with work, and other stuff that occupied so much of my time.

I just wanna give y'all some update about my recent holidays with my better half. We went to KL with obviously different things in our minds-I would like to just enjoy my day off and relax, Maya on the other hand wanna go on a shopping frenzy. But it turned out that none of us were really satisfied on the outcome, and I blame it on our lack of planning, hehe..

First day (its actually an evening) we arrived, Merina my sil picked us up at the airport and we sped off to have chicken rice at Bukit Bintang. I ate 2 sets of those!.. then we went back to the house, at Taman Maluri. About the house, it was so conveniently located just outside KL, took just 5 minutes to go to Bukit Bintang, and about 10 to KLCC (via the new highway, and of course without the traffic jam la). Then we made a decision that will affect the rest of our days, a poor one, at that too.. We decided to visit KL's club scene, and believe me when I say it's just inappropriately timed, not that we didnt have a good time at The Loft KL, honestly we did, but at the expense of our energy..

Next morning(if u can consider 1.00pm as morning!) we woke up with that soreness in our bodies, the kind that you get after you went jogging for 10 miles.. but that didnt stop My Better Half from her frenzies.. while I just mostly sat down and fought off my hangover and soreness. There's something a lil' bit strange tho' in this recent holidays, even though my wife still got that shopping frenzy, she managed to avoid the 'usual' places that we frequently visit while we dated, and I'm sooo relieved even though I was wondering inside. She didnt even stop at any of the LVs, Pradas, and even at Pavilion, the only frightening time for me was when she just went in the Coach store and looked at the bags, but didnt buy em.. anyways, call me cheap but I am so glad.. hehe..

So where did she satisfy her thirst for shopping, you might ask? Its in Times Square, where the price hovers around 25 ringgits and no more than 100s. Tapi, even begitu pun, baju2 and the bags and whatever that ladies bought in their shopping spree, translated into 2 big boxes, hehe, girls will be always be girls.. I on the other hand was not planning to shop, but she finally convinced me to buy one Polo shirt and 2 bottles of my favorite perfume Carolina Hererra 212 and Dunhill Desire Blue.

We did have the chance to spend some time with Mibol, my youngest sister. Even planned to make her stay with us in Maluri but unfortunately she's having her BTN the next day.. so maybe next time la, we'll bring her shopping and have fun together..

Well this is it for this time, time constraint bah.. see you...

Update

Sorry, lama tidak update. Agak sibuk juga sekarang. Dengan program-program Enforcement yang sangat padat, susah mo cari masa update..

23/2/2009 Bermula Ops Bersepadu Wilayah Sandakan
26/2/2009 Bercuti ke Kuala Lumpur seminggu bersama Isteri Tersayang..

Akan diupdate selepas balik dari bercuti...

P/S: Selamat Hari Ulangtahun kepada semua yang lahir di bulan Februari dan Selamat Hari Kekasih..

Get Back

Tagged by @dR3h..

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer
3. You must write that song name down NO MATTER HOW silly it sounds.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.5. Put this on your journal/blog.

The results:

1. If someone says, “Is this okay?” … you say?
Cry me a river- Justin Timberlake
(hehe, let's think about it, if Maya is trying a new pair of shoes and asks my opinion, would this be my answer?)

2. How would you describe yourself?
Me Love - Sean Kingston
(apa ni? wakaka)

3. What do you like in a girl?
Tattoo - Jordin Sparks
(Huh? the only tattoed girl I've ever been with was Jill, hehe..seriously this is wayyyy off my real answer..wakaka)

4. How do you feel today?
Kiss Kiss - Chris Brown feat T-Pain
( hmmm.. hujan jak ni hari dari kemarin, bukan mo kiss kiss tapi mo huggy huggy bah)

5.What is your life’s purpose?
Act a fool - Ludacris
(I don't think this is my life's purpose at all)

6. What is your motto?
I don't give a Fuck - Lil' Jon Ft Mystikal & Krayzie Bone
(sorry no vulgarity intended, my music player did that)

7. What do your friends think of you?
Low - Flo-Rida ft. T-Pain
(Shitttt...my music player seems to mock me..)

8. What do you think of your parents?
Next episode - Dr. Dre ft Snoop Dogg
(Hmmmm)

9. What do you think about very often?
Berikan aku Cinta - Ungu
(hehehe, maybe this is right)

10. What is 2 + 2?
Grillz - Nelly ft Paul Wall
(what's the connection between number 4 and something you put inside ur mouth?)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Big Girls Don't Cry (remix) - Fergie ft Sean Kingston
(???)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Izinkan Ku Pergi - Kaer
(No..No.. No..)

13. What is your life story?
Gimmi That - Chris Brown
(gimmi that and gimme this.. yes thats my life story grabbing and fighting for something i really want)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
London Bridge - Fergie
(what?? why do I want to be a bridge?)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Spaghetti Songs - Sexbomb Girls
(heheh.. this song is funny, and sexy as well, maybe it means i think of cheerful things, kan?)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
No One - Alicia Keys
(Hmm but my recent wedding didnt involve dancing in it, maybe the next one la.. hahaha..just kidding, sayang)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
With You - Chris Brown
(yay.. they miss me so much that their thought will always be with me, and some of them DO want to be with me in death..maybe my sayang la tu kan..)

18.What is your hobby/interest?
The Final Countdown - Europe
(hmmm)

19. What is your biggest fear?
Just a Friend - Too Phat
(maybe to hear something like "Sayang don't worry, he's just a friend".. get it?)

20. What is your biggest secret?
Last Night - P. Diddy ft Keyshia Cole
(hehe, of course what i did last night is a secret, but not my biggest secret la)

21. What do you think of your friends?
Jump Around - House of Pain
(some of them do jump around, friendly in time of joy but missing when u're in need)

22. What will you post this as?
Get Back - Ludacris
(Yeah lets get back to reality coz most of these answers were bogus and wayy off target..)

This was supposed to be funny, but then again I don't think it is that funny, but this is my first time doing this tag thingy so y'all kinda have to cut me some slack la kan..

Something for The Future..

Been hunting for a house to call my own, after weeks of choosing the right one, finally We decided to buy an Apartment in Bandar Utama Sandakan. Utama Court 2, a 3 Bedrooms 2 bathrooms 8 storey apartment (elevator, of course), with 1145 sq.ft of built area. It's all about the location and future development. From the Main Project Proposal, Bandar Utama will be the next Hub for Sandakan. With a 5 star Hotel and Shopping Mall in progress, Giant Hypermarket, Stadium (Football and Rugby Field), Olympic sized Swimming Pools, I can't refuse the temptation to own an adress in Sandakan's Premier Location. Paid the booking fee already and now in progress of arranging the Sale & Purchase Agreement and bank loan. This is surely one for the future...

You Have an ASSIGNMENT!!

Lately my wife been hinting about having a baby.. Well, hehe I have nothing against being a daddy, in fact I would love to see a mini version of me running around the house creating havoc for Maya and I. But I would like you (daddys and mummys) the reader of my state of mind to give me any advice on what to expect, and the do's and dont's. Doesnt even matter the pros and cons, I want every advice I can get my hands on.. so I can be prepared for the unknown (I know nobody can get prepared enough for this).

So that's your assignment folks...

See ya..

Futsal..

Last weekend me and my boys went to KK to participate in State level Futsal tournament (for my Department). We sent 2 teams from Sandakan, Mabuhay FC and Narkoba FC. I was the captain for Mabuhay FC. Both teams progressed well through group stages, Us being the Group A Champion and Narkoba second in Group B. But it was unfortunate for me when I was badly injured (my ankle got twisted in 3rd group match and then in final group match the tactic used by our opponent was to eliminate me from the game, being the playmaker and to stop me from distributing nice passes to Raihan, the most feared shooter in the tournament). I almost cried not just because of the pain, but mostly because I can't bear to watch the rest of my teammates played and struggled beyond their limit to defend our 2 goals lead and eventually win, getting us through to quarter finals.

In quarter finals match against the favorite team (seeded 1st in the tournament) which consist of state players, I was sidelined because I can barely walk, but when we were 2 goals down with just 4 minutes to go, I braved myself and tied my futsal boots so tight that I felt numb so I can bear the tremendous pain. I told the manager to please let me play, and as soon as I got inside the court, I have managed to change the flow of our game. I managed to orchestrate a very nice move and slide a piercing through pass for Isa to score. 2-1 was the score and 1 minute to go.. my right ankle was so painful and almost gone, and I guess its just the spirit and will to win that keep me going. I run like hell all over the court, hustling the opponent and suddenly the ball was at my feet, I dunno how, but I did my magic and Goall!! the score was 2-2 just a few second before the final whistle, and I dropped to the ground, unable to withstand the pain, I cant even move my right leg without screaming. The match ended in a 2-2 draw full time. It came down to penalty shoot-out and I didnt get to be replaced. The rules said only the players inside the court can take penalty, that means I have to kick the ball with literally one good foot left. How can I, seriously, kick a ball when I can barely stand up? So we lose by 1 penalty kicks, every players scored except me (because I cant kick the ball, remember?) I guess it just wasnt our day..

But that wasnt the worse, Narkoba FC also got through to Quarter Finals, draw 2-2 and lose by flip of a 20 cents coin. That was so ridiculous, not to be sore losers but hey, is it fair to determine the fate of a team with a 20 cents coin, when you could think of at least ten other ways to conclude a game?.. U can recycle the penalty kickers until one of them misses, there is also sudden death extra time, but seems like the advantage was given to the home teams.. well it just wasnt our tournament to win, but most of the spectators, neutrals especially admitted both Mabuhay and Narkoba deserved to go further. Guess which team won the tournament, the team that beat us was the champ and the team that beat Narkoba was 2nd..

Next time will be different.. be sure of it. We are now the force to be reckoned with..

Pertempuran Berdarah 2009

Well, one of my 2009 resolution is to stay low keyed in some areas, especially violence. But what can I say? sometimes even how hard you try to avoid trouble, it tries even harder to find you.. this is my story..

Selamat Pengantin Baru..

One day last week time balik kerja tiba2 ternampak satu kad jemputan kahwin atas meja: Pn. Maya dan suami. So aku buka la tengok siapa yang kawin.. Written on the inside Kartini Abdullah dan Muhaizad bin Ahmad Mustapha.. nikahnya di Taman Mawar 17 Januari 2009, dan majlis persandingannya pula di Sanbay Hotel 18 Januari (semalam) jam 7 malam. Anda recognize siapa Muhaizad bin Ahmad Mustapha? dia lebih dikenali dengan nama glamornya Ako Mustapha. Majlis nikahnya hari tu dihadiri juga oleh Encik Cip Kodok iaitu Afdlin Shauki himself, tapi kejap jak la.. time sanding cip tiada datang.. aku pun ndak datang masa sanding tu sebab training futsal untuk tournament di KK Ahad ni.. Maya jak yang pigi, menurut Maya nda juga berapa meriah majlis tu.. meriah lagi majlis kami di sabah Hotel last year.. sempat jugalah Maya ambil gambar kenangan dengan pengantin malam semalam.. Mungkin majlis tu sederhana sebab Ako nda mau kecoh2.. apa2pun selamat pengantin baru...

Bah, sampai sini la dulu celoteh hari ni.. see you when I see you guys.. bye.

**edited for anonimousity..

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009

Selamat tinggal 2008, tahun yang banyak kenangan suka dan duka bagi aku. Kepada reader blog ni, I'm sorry for all the wrong things I've done, directly or indirectly.. hope this year akan bring more happiness, health and wealth for all of us..

Ok, sebelum aku merapu banyak, I know I have somekind of 'hutang' with y'all, about the stories I promised to tell y'all.. hehe.. Sorry too much was goin' on that I can't seem to find the time to write. I don't think it matters anymore (basi plak sudah rasanya).. But I'll just fill you in with my original points, minus the elaborate storytelling that I was supposed to do.. hehe...

1. Pierre Andre- I think this guy was one of the most talented people in Malaysia, nuff said.
2 Myvi - Accident hari tu, ada macik ni anaknya kawin di rumah sebelah, jadi dia parking siring jalan, time aku limpas, nda lagi meninguk2 trus dia buka pintu.. next thing I know 'kprasck!!' luckily I dint crash into her.. but its okay now.
3. proton MSX - Super 3.0 SUV (almost like Caldina in appearance) a Proton-Lotus concept car, with reported ability to accelerate at the pace of 0-100 in only 5+ second and top speed 250km/h.. what do u think?
4. Hari IM***N Malaysia - Everything went well, I was the Emcee for Majlis Perhimpunan and the Sabah Hotel Dinner (this one had to replace Mr. Ismail Wahab at the last minute). The State Director seems Pleased with us.. so I guess its kinda OK..
5. Tawau - Busy btul schedule kami di Twu, kami konvoi dari sandakan dalam 20 kereta, sampai Tawau petang 26hb..

*alamak.. nanti aku edit lagi.. ada pula kerja lagi.. tunggu...

Preview

Ada banyak mo ditulis, tapi masa nda cukup.. nantilah bila sudah ada free, aku update...

Antara yang akan diperkatakan..

1. Pierre Andre
2. Myvi Memphis ku accident (warrrggghhh!!!!!)
3. Proton MSX baru
4. Hari I***n Malaysia peringkat Sabah
5. Liverpool
6. Drag race Tawau 27/12/08

bah nantikan sija ceritaku.. aku mo pigi atur dulu kerita myviku yg kasian..

Update, Update...

Been a long time since I've last penned (or rather, keyed) out my thoughts.. maybe some have already begin to wonder if I'm still alive. Well I am, hehe.. just I was so busy with work that I have no time to write.

First I want to wish my sister Sabrinah Happy Birthday. She just turned 30 on December 10th. Also My cuz MH yang celebrate hari ulangtahun pada 6th December. Harijadi yang amat bermakna untuk my Sis Rina sebab pada masa yang sama she's also pregnant. Jaga kesihatan, jangan terlampau stress. Maya and myself are expecting our second niece/nephew. Juga Congrats utk Zhaf atas pertunangannya. Moga jodoh berkekalan dan bahagia ke akhir hayat.

I'm not feeling so well this recent weeks, kena demam lepas tu batuk yang macam nda pandai mo baik, geram betul rasanya bila batuk ni. Malas pula mo pigi klinik, sebab susah juga mo makan ubat ikut schedule bah, mesti miss especially tengahari.

Baru-baru ni bila tengok cermin rasa risau pula meninguk perut yang makin lemak dan berkrim ni.. Ramai kawan-kawan cakap memang gini kalau suda kawin..tapi ish.. nda best bah. Baru muscle2 pun (bukan besar pun muscle) sudah start lembut, ni perkembangan yang nda best ni.. Jadi sekarang aku exercise la tiap-tiap hari, Push up 100 kali sehari, sit up 100 juga. Angkat Dumbell pun 50 setiap belah tangan. Dalam sebulan lagi upgrade pigi 200/200/100. Mesti jaga fitness ku, kalau nda nanti payah pula mo mengejar penjahat.. hehe. Tapi jogging ni yang aku nda sempat ni.. ndapalah, start this week aku join membership Indahjaya Recreation Club, jadi malam pun aku boleh pigi swimming, pigi gym, exercise sana. Lagipun dekat ja sama rumah, convenient mo pigi ikut my own time.

I got greenlight from my boss to revive my department's Football Club. I already have all sort of plans to get the club going, not just playing football, but also to organize trips, outstation trips, maybe to Poring ka, Climb Mount Kinabalu ka, visit Tawau n Lahad datu as well as KK and have friendly matches with them. I am also in the middle of negotiating with some Spas to get the best deal so I can get my team to enjoy and relax once every two month. I hope this can fire up their spirit and motivate them to fully take part in my training and match programs. I have high expectations for this team. Thanks to the boss for noticing, hehe. I think this is due to the recent inter-section futsal tournament that me and my enforcement staff have succesfully organized. Guess who win? of course la kami di enforcement, kan aku kapten team enforcement.. (masuk bakul angkat pakai kren plak aku). We won the final 9-2 against team Pintu Masuk (airport n pelabuhan). Team HQ batu 7 got 3rd Place.. I'm being diplomatic by refusing to accept the Best Player award and recommend to give it instead to Mr. Isa from Team Pintu Masuk (kasi naik semangat durang beb).. Timbalan Ketua Pengarah I*** Malaysia will present the prize to winners on the 20th at sabah Hotel, Sandakan in conjunction with Hari I*** Malaysia which Sandakan will host this year.

Speaking about Hari I***n Malaysia this 18-20th December, I'm gonna have my hands full again this week because I am directly involved in organizing the Hari Keluarga I****, which will be held at Rainforest Discovery Centre, Sepilok. Phew.. hope me and my team can do it well and impress the big bosses (Pengarah I***n Sabah, Timbalan Pengarah and most importantly Timbalan Ketua Pengarah I***n Malaysia). This is also part of my bid to get noticed by the big bosses so I can progress well through the hierarchy.. Wish me luck ya?

Oklah.. I'll pause for a while now.. will be back to bring all y'all insights of my life again next time. so until then, later folks..

The Eve of my Conscience

Tonight exactly at 0001 hrs, I'll be celebrating my 29th Birthday. Phew, how time flies!! I still have flashes of how things were so carefree and easy, how my parents always took care of things for me, how my mum always remind me of responsibility, and now, I'm somebody's husband, Im the man of my house.

Come to think of it, it's so easy to get off track in life, even with your family around to help you get trough all the ups and downs. Well, I'm the best example. I'm not the best of son or brother to my family, I'm not perfect, as does each and everyone of us, but my life journey is what you can call twisted. I still remember being a disappointment to my family, even a total disgrace is what I was. I flunked my tertiary education, bad one at it, I lied, deceived and broke the hearts of people who loved me. I lived in with my girlfriend in the same neighbourhood with my family, I have disregarded their feelings, but still they stood by me. I truly love all of you, especially my Mum, for it. I can't imagine how broken she must've felt to see her only son disgrace her to the highest level. Mum, I'm sorry and thank you for your incomparable patience and endless prayers, I'm sorry for all the tears you shed for and because of me. I love you so much. Same goes to my sisters, I know all of you felt the pain all those years seeing your brother inhumane madness. But now, I've changed, and thanks to all of you for giving me the time and chance to be who I am today. And mostly I Thank The Almighty for the Mercy, the Light, the Guidance, and the Divine Intervention You sent to wake me and change me to be a better slave, son, brother and now, a husband. I can't say enough to express how I truly appreciate everything.

If I have only one day left to live, I'll say that I lived my life and I tasted the bitter and swallowed it with pride, knowing that you, my family stood by me and I'll stand by you until the end. I love all of you.

Congratulations!

Just a quick congratulations to my cousins Hanis and Onie for getting 4A's in their UPSR. You Go Girls!!

I Realized

I realized something today

i realized the sun and moon

i realized the heavens and earth

and i realized you

I realized the truth

i realized that i love you

i realized that this realization

this epiphany

this revelation

is forthcoming

is steadfast

and is beautiful

Sometimes more often than not

i look at you and see me

a reflection

and i feel beautiful

because you are beautiful

I crave your sensitive heart

pressed together

our hearts beat a synchronous beat

our admiration for one another

grows stronger with each one

I dont promise forever

or tomorrow

but i promise to love you

as long

as deeply

as unconditionally

as i can

for you are to me

the love i always knew existed

and im grateful

I asked God to send me

someone special

someone loving

someone beautiful

and God sent me you

From the heavens

came my angel

the salvager of

my soul

my trust

my devotion

my completion

my intention

is to learn with you

from you

all the ways of love

ancient to me

gone for so long

a rediscovery

of my heart's solitude

and contentment

lead me into temptation

For you are

to me

everything

everyone

be-all, end-all

the realization

of truth

Kita dan Pendatang

Sekarang ni kalau kita tinguk di sekeliling kita, macam susah kita mau bezakan warganegara dengan bukan warganegara ni, telampau mix sudah. Walaupun masih ada yang pakai pasport atau langsung tiada dokumen, tapi jumlah mereka yang sudah di'regularisasi'kan pun makin meningkat. I don't mean to be 'racist' or 'prejudice', but this is something that we should take 2 minutes to think about..

Recently I went to Kg. Paris (somewhere between Kinabatangan and Lahad Datu) for a house to house inspection. Area ni kebanyakannya dihuni oleh masyarakat yang berasal dari negara jiran, dan aktiviti ekonomi di sini sebahagiannya pekerja ladang, dan peniaga (warung makanan dan kedai runcit). Apa yang aku mau cerita ni ialah suasana rumah atau perkampungan di sini yang terasa seakan-akan kita berada di negara jiran. Dalam rumah mereka, rata-rata mesti ada satu frame gambar pemimpin, and no, not Tunku Abd. Rahman or Tun Mahathir, it's President Soekarno's photo. Maybe we can understand their affection to this great leader of Indonesia, (How many of us hang a nicely framed photo of Tunku Abd. Rahman on our wall?) but my point is, some of these houses, yang tinggal di dalam memiliki Mykad sekeluarga. Mari kita fikir-fikirkanlah, seandainya (palis2 la) terjadi pergeseran antara negara kita dengan Indonesia, yang mana satu durang mau ikut?

Lain lagi dengan kitaran kawan-kawan di sekeliling, baru-baru ni aku dapat tau yang salah seorang kawan Biniku pun tiada dokumen yang teratur! masyaAllah, kalaula waktu dia ikut jalan2 dengan kami selama-lama ni tiba-tiba ada pemeriksaan dan kantoi, malunya aku tu.. aduh.. tapi yang peliknya parents nya ada pulak mykad.. susah mau komen ni, nanti kalau telampau komen lebih-lebih kena ISA pulak kita.. but I think this got sumthin to do with politics la.. kesian bah rakyat Sabah..

Apa-apa pun, harap-haraplah Sabah ni akan improved dari segi keselamatan dalam negeri dan semuanya, afterall, arent we one of the country's big purse? jadi jaga la orang kita.. jangan diketepikan orang sendiri sedangkan orang lain diutamakan..

Ndada ndada

Seorang guru, Cikgu Murni (Umur: 22) menghadapi masalah dengan salah seorang muridnya (Abu). Lalu guru ini bertanya kepada murid tersebut : “Apa sebenarnya masalah awak, Abu?”Lalu Abu menjawab, “Saya terlalu cerdik untuk berada di darjah 4, kakak saya menduduki UPSR dan saya lebih cerdik dari dia, maka saya seharusnya berada di tempat yang sama juga!”. Cikgu Murni dah tak tertahan. Dia bawa Abu ke pejabat pengetua. Sementara Abu menunggu di ruang tamu, Cikgu Murni terangkan keadaan tersebut kepada pengetua. Pengetua mengatakan yang dia akan berikan ujian kepada Abu dan jika Abu gagal menjawab, maka Abu harus kekal di darjah 3 dan berkelakuan baik. Abu dibawa masuk ke pejabat Pengetua dan Cikgu Murni terangkan pada Abu dan Abu bersetuju untuk ambil ujian yang akan diberikan.

Pengetua: Apa 3 x 3?
Abu: 9
Pengetua: Apa 6 x 6?
Abu: 36

Pengetua terus bertanyakan soalan2 berdasarkan tahap pencapaian murid2 UPSR dan si Abu mampu menjawab tiap soalan yang diberikan. Lalu pengetua memandang Cikgu Murni dan berkata, “Saya rasa murid ini sepatutnya berada di darjah 6″, Lalu Cikgu Murni berkata pada pengetua, “Saya ada soalan saya sendiri, boleh tak saya ajukan pada Abu?”. Pengetua dan Abu bersetuju.

Cikgu Murni: Apa yang lembu ada 4 di badan, tapi saya cuma ada dua?
Abu: (berfikir) Kaki
Cikgu Murni: Apa yang ada di dalam seluar kamu tapi tidak pada seluar saya?
Abu: Saku
Cikgu Murni: Apa yang bermula dengan huruf “K” akhir dengan “A”, ianya berbulu, berbentuk oval, nyaman dan mengandungi lapisan nipis keputihan?
Abu: Kelapa
Cikgu Murni: Apakah yang masuk keras dan berwarna “pink”, bila keluar lembik dan melekit?

Mata Pengetua terbuka luas dan sebelum sempat dia menahan, si Abu terus menjawab.

Abu: Gula-gula getah (Bubblegum)
Cikgu Murni: Apa yang mereka lakukan, lelaki secara berdiri, wanita secara duduk dan anjing secara tiga kaki?

Mata Pengetua sekali lagi terbuka sangat2 luas dan sebelum dia sempat hendak menahan si Abu terus menjawab.

Abu: Bersalaman
Cikgu Murni: Baik, sekarang saya akan ajukan soalan berbentuk siapakah saya, okay?
Abu: Baik Cikgu
Cikgu Murni: Awak memasukkan batang kedalam saya. Awak ikat saya untuk saya berdiri. Saya kebasahan sebelum awak.

Pengetua kelihatan resah dengan soalan yang diajukan oleh Cikgu Murni.

Abu: Khemah
Cikgu Murni: Jari memasuki saya. Awak menggesel-gesel saya bila awak teringatkan saya. Lelaki idaman akan mendapat saya dahulu.

Pengetua semakin resah dan tidak selesa. Lantas terus meneguk segelas Nescafe 3in1.

Abu: Cincin perkahwinan
Cikgu Murni: Saya ada bermacam-macam saiz. Bila saya sakit saya akan meleleh. Bila saya keluar, banyak tisu yang akan digunakan. Bila awak hembuskan saya, akan berasa lega.

Sekali lagi pengetua rasa amat resah dengan soalan yang di ajukan oleh Cikgu Murni dan ingin membantah, tapi si Abu mendahuluinya.

Abu: Hidung
Cikgu Murni: Saya batang yang keras. Hujungnya tajam. Saya akan datang dan masuk dengan lajunya.
Abu: Anak panah
Cikgu Murni: Sekarang saya akan ajukan soalan dalam Bahasa Inggeris, okay?
Abu: Okay
Cikgu Murni: What word starts with a ‘F’ and end in ‘K’ that means lot of heat and excitement?
Abu: Firetruck
Cikgu Murni: What word starts with a ‘F’ and ends in ‘K’ & if you dont get it you have to use your hand.
Abu: Fork
Cikgu Murni: What is it that all men have one of. It’s longer on some men than on others, the pope does not use his, and a man gives it to his wife after they are married?
Abu: Surname
Cikgu Murni: What part of the man has no bones but has muscles, lots of veins and loves pumping?
Abu: Heart

Pengetua menghembuskan nafas kelegaan bila mendengar jawapan yang diberikan oleh si Abu, lantas berkata “Baik hantar murid ini ke Universiti Malaya; jawapan yang saya fikirkan semuanya salah”.
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Hehe.. kalau anda pun ada fikiran yang sama dengan Pengetua tu, maknanya anda telah terdedah terlalu banyak dengan MTV dan filem2 Hollywood, hehe..

Bukan apa, semalam aku tinguk filem The Gameplan (lakonan The Rock), ndada juga la kaitan yang direct dengan post di atas, tapi oleh sebab wayang tu mengisahkan tentang The Rock yang baru sedar dia ada anak perempuan umur 8 tahun, dan watak anak dia tu betul2 mencuit hatiku, aku pun teringat la dengan budak2 sekarang dan kepintaran luarbiasa yang durang ada, maklumlah, generasi MTV semua, hehe.. ndak buli main2 dengan budak2 zaman sekarang, macam anak buahku si icha, jangan main2 dengan dia, kadang2 mamanya pun kalah sudah tu kalau bercakap sama dia, macam2 yang ditaunya. Contohnya haritu, bertengkar dengan mamanya pasal outerspace, hehe, luu juga bila anak yang kecil boleh cerita pasal outerspace lebih detail dari parentnya, siap mengasi fakta2 lagi yg mamanya nda tau.. ndak dapat aku imagine nanti kalau aku ada anak sendiri, macamana la tu gaya nya?

Tapi kadang2 aku berangan la juga kalau ada anak, aku actually prefer sepasang boy and girl, and preferably first child tu perempuan la (ada reason, tapi nda boleh la aku kasi tau, pasal ini strategic planning aku, hehe).. memang aku rasa berubah banyak la kali perangaiku ni.. nda taula.. aku punya affection sama budak ni sampai tahap Maya cakap gini; "Sayang takut aku kalau kita ada anak nanti sayang nda peduli aku". Jangan risau bah sayang tetap permaisuriku.. Tapi fikir2 kan, ada juga logiknya perasaan risau tu, sebab kalau ikut, anak ni darah kita, isteri/suami ni orang lain yang disatukan, jadi memang lain tu perasaan sayang kita sama anak banding dengan pasangan kita. Anak tu la sebenarnya yang patut dijadikan keutamaan, dan pada masa yang sama penguat ikatan suami-isteri.. kan?.. hehe, banyak la pula aku merepek ni.. oklah sampai jumpa lagi lain kali.. Salam untuk semua.